I just caught myself stalking the art and life of someone who got accepted to a grad program that I didn’t. Five minutes in I knew it was the worse type of self abuse ever. I was measuring my self worth against someone else’s outward appearances. I am not, nor will I ever be this person. That’s neither good or bad, it just is. The sooner I stop running from me, the more sanity I’ll gain, and the better the quality of life I’ll have. This is the life I was given. I have to deal with it. I hope to eventually love it, just the way it is. I don’t want to exist. I want to live.
Amen. Ashé. Selah.